I just don't know what's going on with me lately I've been in such a horrible frame of mind. I don't get it I have a wonderful son, the best friends anyone could wish for, A great career, I'm back in the gym working out and eating right I've lost 13.5lbs in 2 weeks. Yet I'm completely lost.
So I ran in to a friend of mine that I haven't seen in quite a few months me and this person dated a bit and we became really close for a while. We're a lot alike same age, divorced, have children, we understand each other. I was ready to give this person everything I am I can honestly say I loved her 1st person I have feelings like that for since I got divorced 8 years ago and this is the 1st time I've said that out loud. It was really good to see her it was hard for me though as her boyfriend was there no jealousy because we were never really together, just awkward. She hugs me we give each other a mutual kiss kinda half on the cheek half on the mouth. It was like there was no time lost between us. It just hard for me all these feelings come rushing to the surface then I'm wrecked for the rest of the night and the next week until I let it out.
I think the problem is that I don't have anyone to have these conversations with. So I've started blogging and bearing my feelings anonymously.
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And THAT is exactly the reason I started blogging.....My problem is that I started promoting my site and now everyone I know personally reads it. Bad idea.
ReplyDeleteIf you truly have the best friends and guy could ask for then you could talk to them about these things too....She sounds like great girl. Do everything you can to win her =) Put in the effort and fight for what you want. Don't pussyfoot around the situation. Give it everything you've got, and then if it still doesn't work out you'll know you gave it your best shot.