It's my 1st blog be gentle.

So I decided to do this because I have a lot of stuff in my head and need to clear it out. Like most guys I'm emotionally constipated, but unlike most I will admit it. I have a real hard time expressing myself unless I've had a few drinks and then it's like a laxative and it all just comes out, usually this happens about every six months or so. Normally it's to a female friend who I have serious feelings for. There must be some reason I can't seem to express myself to them sober. (could be I'm a pussy)? Then I always feel bad that I laid it all out there in an inebriated state, it's not fair to her or me. Part of the problem is I'm actually pretty shy but nobody ever believes that because I have these walls built up around me so no one really gets to see inside. The crazy thing is I do sales for a living and I'm damn good at it I can talk to anyone about anything, but make it a woman and I have feelings for her my mind goes blank and I'm grasping for words. It's fricken ridiculous. Anyway like I said I started this to clear out my head so I'll be talking about anything it could be more like this, what me and my friends did over the weekend, my trip home to see my son, dating in this town we call sin city, It will be my view on all these and anything else I can think of. If someone reads this i hope you enjoy it and let me know the good and the bad.